I Am

Confusion inside me
And sadly it defines me
Left feeling frustrated
But that's never all
Play the cards that I'm dealt
Never gain ground that I've felt
Left feeling deflated
but that's never all

I don't know what I'm doing
I don't know where I am
I don't know where I'm going
I only know where I've been

Excitement inside me
Opportunities still surprise me
Left feeling elated
But that's never all
Seize the day so they say
But how do I find my own way
Left feeling degraded
But that's never all

I don't know what I'm doing
I don't know where I am
I don't know where I'm going
I only know where I've been

I don't know what I'm doing
I don't know where I am
I don't know where I'm going
I only know where I've been

I only know where I've been

I only know where I've been

If it's not one thing, it's another
Day-by-day I discover
that the weight on my shoulders
only gets heavier as I get older

I don't know what I'm doing
I don't know where I am
I don't know where I'm going
I only know where I've been

I don't know who the fuck I am

It's the same shit on a different day
As I pass this life away
And I want to know where my life will go
But I settle for the mundane

It's the same shit on a different day
As I pass this life away
And I want to know where my life will go
But I settle for the mundane

It's the same shit
It's a different day
As I pass this life away

I don't know what I'm doing
I don't know where I am
I don't know where I'm going
I only know where I've been

I don't know who the fuck I am

Shadows

How did I get here?
Is it darkness that creeps in my bones?
On the edge of that fear
On the edge of everything that I've known

I can see it's the end
of the way things used to be
Breaking down
Dissolving everything inside of me
There's no love in the end
only what you want from me
Giving up
Letting darkness take control of me

And I stand here alone
And all these words
can't bring me home
My mind is filled shadows
Shadows of the soul
These shadows
Shadows of control

Stake your claim on me
It's the dawn of the age of fear
You tell me I'm free
The illusion whispered into my ear

I can see it's the end
of the way things used to be
Breaking down
Dissolving everything inside of me
There's no love in the end
only what you want from me
Giving up
Letting darkness take control of me

And I stand here alone
And all these words
can't bring me home
My mind is filled shadows
Shadows of the soul
These shadows
Shadows of control

The music here was all written by my buddy Larry who was cool enough to let me give a shot at doing some vocals on it. It probably seems nerdy, but the lyrics here are actually influenced by the video game Alan Wake.  I wasn't sure what to write about, and I was in the middle of a replay of Alan Wake: American Nightmare.  I decided to try writing from the point of view of someone falling under the influence of the Taken and what it must be like.  Although, when I was done, I've had people tell me the the things they think the song is about.  It's been insightful in regards to how people think and relate the contents to their own experiences.